Right now, my family is planning a big move. We are moving from Utah to Maryland. I have lived in Utah my entire life. I've traveled a little bit, but I've always had Utah as my home to come back to. I'm not sure what to expect leaving Utah on a whim and not coming back here. I love it here, and I'm sure I've taken it for granted-my entire life.
It is definitely stressful trying to adapt my life to one that involves putting everything in boxes, finishing up unfinished projects on our home, and putting our well- adapted to house up for sale, in hopes that someone out there will seek out a life in our soon to be empty house.
I feel like I can adapt to new situations, and learn to grow to like new environments, as long as there is a sturdy foundation upon which to build. I mean this in physical terms and spiritual terms as well. Physical terms: I need a strong house structure to build my life upon. Spiritual: I need a strong connection to my God to grow from.
Change causes an uproar of emotional purging. Right now I'm physically, emotionally and everything exhausted. I feel kind of queasy thinking about all the decisons that need to be made and all the change that has to occur- and all of the uncertainty that is before me. But, amongst all this chaos, I am grateful for what is certain andd steady in my life. God, Nature, My Family and my Friends are all constants in my life- they are always there in one form or another, and always will be. I may be in a different location, but these things will always be there in essence.
I hope I can sleep tonight. Thanks for letting the real-me interrupt my foodieness for a while, and share some of the craziness going on inside my head. I had to get it out somewhere.
I need quiet. I need space. I need clarity.